Well its been several days already but I needed to write a little something about recent events.  The wife and I went for a simple exam Monday due to some spotting and learned that we had lost the baby.  What terrible terrible news that was completely unexpected.

WE made it to nearly 10 weeks and had started warming up to making plans and things and had already told several people.  I mean “why not”?  We had already seen the heartbeat and although we didnt make a lot of announcements we were not secretive about it.  Not sure what the message is or what we are supposed to learn exactly but I figure there is some purpose through God that I just don’t know about yet. 

The  development stopped at approx 8 weeks or so.  No indications or symptoms other than a barely noticeable spotting nearly two weeks later.  :(

This being the SECOND time losing a baby and after failed IVF we wanted to revisit the idea of planting a tree… a memorial tree.

This applies a bit of  a positive thought to a sad time.  Not a cure but it felt good.  It also adds a bit of improved “landscaping”.  I put that in quotes because my thumb isnt green. :)

Below pics show the spot in front of the house… not sure what I would find in the dirt!  Hoping no water or power lines would be found under the surface.  heh.

Picking out our tree!  I wanted something that didnt have a lot of low branches and warmed up to this palm tree looking thing pretty quickly.  Unable to communicate to know exactly what it is though.

Done!  Or nearly so.  Still have some cleanup to do and maybe add a small border or other decorative bits.  Found lots of broken glass and pottery parts in the ground along with a large brick and many many rocks.  Looking at the pics now I’m half tempted to paint the empty house next door!

Just in case you actually read my cryptic post earlier showing “hCG” levels but did not figure it out yet, we are pregnant.  Well not ME actually but I hope you figured that out on your own.  Anyone reading?  Moving on to a picture:

What yer lookin above is a scan taken today.  If the measurement is accurate ( starting to doubt), then this is a big baby.  Thus the “or so” part since maybe its actually 7 weeks 4 days? 6 days?

Until today we thought 8 weeks + !  Go figure.

Below is a nice 3Dish representation of the above.  No, this is not a Geico advert or a recasting of “V” but is instead just how a baby will look at this stage.  Neat eh?  I thought so.

 

So we wait now for a while until the next series of checks…